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I reach out my hand,For the help I need,
But all I grab is air, And I can feel my soul bleed,

My heart still beats, But I have become desolated,
Why do you ignore my plead, I feel so isolated,

The never ending tears, My endless screams,
Does anyone care, A terrifying dream,

Will you look at me, Will you acknowledge my existence,
My extended hand, pleads for any assistance,

I don't know who I am, I become desperate,
Clinging to the shadows, I become separate,

The real life is scary, a nightmare of reality,
My mental state changes me, Comfort me my dear loving Insanity.
Swallowing it whole,
I wait for it to take effect,
Numbing the pain,
I start to fee relieved,
I need it to survive,
I need it to prove I exist,
But I soon grow immune,
The feeling goes away,
And the pain intensifies,
Breaking down,
I don't know what to do,
How does one continue,
With this agony?
Describe my behavior, It's one simple flavor,

Insanity best suits me, I'm as free as I can be,

Care to take a tour, Go through the maze and open my door,

See what's inside, No need to run or hide,

Shall we entertain thee, In my brain you shall see,

Chaos and madness, Please ignore my sadness,

For I am not important, There is no judgement,

A mask I wear, The real me is rare,

Do you enjoy seeing this, Isn't my torment such a bliss,

Please do not try to assist, For I will surely resist,

I like my sad little world, Watch my mind get swirled,

No longer lost No longer found, Just bury me six feet underground,

Me and my delusion, Me and my illusion,

My hysteria, My dementia,

My psychopathy,
        My one and only Insanity

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Envy-You
Amber
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Well been awhile since I actually edited this so im doing this now. Hi, I'm amber. I'm 17 years old and live with my mother and friend Stacia. I have two cats in whom I adore, like I dot on them all the times.

My boyfriend is :icongfgbilly: and i loves him so much. <3 we were childhood friends but ive loved him since then. and im glad i got him now. We started to date may 19 2012~ im so happyyyyyy~ :iconjoyplz:

I don't really have a religion anymore because I use to be christian but my idea of God was different then everyone's else. I know there's a God, but I believe that he is a stadistic man who loves to watch us humans struggle to survive and even tho he promises that if we stay good we can go to heaven but I do not believe that. I believe on 3 people are allowed in heaven: God, Jesus, and Mary. But everyone else is going to hell. Which is why I am no longer christian.
I hope we can get along well. I write poetry alot on here and I do not really take requests only because most people want me to write something stupid. If you want me to write you an emotional poem then I will be more then happy to, but other then that NO.
And my last name is not lamps. It was a joke my friends came up with and i went along with it.
ok. so im actually going on my formspring thingy. so ask away any question!
www.formspring.me/​XxEnv…
i also made one on DA
​askenvyyou.deviantart.c…

Current Residence: California
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Medium
Print preference: black and white
Favourite genre of music: techno, musical, alternative punk
Favourite photographer: Charles Baudelaire
Favourite style of art: Emotional
Operating System: phone
MP3 player of choice: ipod
Shell of choice: nut shell
Wallpaper of choice: dark green
Skin of choice: dark green
Favourite cartoon character: Envy, Marshall Lee
Personal Quote: life is like a bitch,its something you got to deal with
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[x] You don't like public speaking.
[ ] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[ ] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[ ] You hate using public restrooms. (ill use them if i cant hold it in)
[ ] You hate to go shopping alone.
TOTAL: 1

[ ] Being introduced to new people makes you nervous.
[ ] When you're in a group of people, it's difficult to think of what to say.
[ ] You have a lot of trouble talking to the opposite sex.
[x] You hate to be teased. 
[x] You hate answering the door. 
TOTAL: 3

[ ] You can't stand people watching you.
[/] One on one conversation makes you nervous. (if i knew the person, im fine.)
[x] You don't like to ask people for help. 
[x] You hate to read out loud. (i mess up on my words a lot)
[ ] You don't like answering questions.
TOTAL: 5.5

[ ] You dread ordering food at restaurants.
[ ] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well. 
[ ] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[ ] You wish you were more outgoing.
[ ] You hate being in the center of any room 
TOTAL: 5.5

[ ] You don't know how to react to compliments.
[/] You prefer reading, writing, or listening to music than being around too many people. (depends on my mood)
[/] You blush easily.
[x] You spend a lot of time in your room.
[ ] You don't like talking about personal things with people you don't know very well. 
TOTAL: 7.5

Overall total: 7.5

Multiply your overall total by 4 to find out what percent of shyness you are. Then title this journal entry "I am __% Shy"

I am 30%.
  • Mood: Eager
  • Listening to: i dont even know
  • Reading: Everything
  • Watching: american dad
  • Playing: PokemonMMO
  • Eating: dinner
  • Drinking: stuff

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Hey do you remember me? I did a version of Pitch's Hell fire for Jack.
I did another song want to see it?
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:party: Happy, happy birthday~ :party:

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Happy birthday ^^ 

here have a cake :3 

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happy birthday ^_^
god luck in ur future life ^_^
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thx for the fave~
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Congrats on 2nd place! :hooray: For prizes, you may choose a sketch ROTG related of your liking and a chibi of whatever you want! Message me via note! Thanks! :heart:
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You have been tagged, sorry the tag-thingy told me to..

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come and RP with me? :3
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Hello :3
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Back online ;3
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still alive?
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Hey :3
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Hey, I am on now, finally sorry if I left you waiting
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